sumpah rindu !♥♥

sumpah aq rindu kaw
sumpah aq xley lupekan kaw
sumpah aq syg kaw
tp , aq xbrani untuk mnyatakan sumpah utk menyatakan yg aq akn menanti kaw smpai akhir denyutan jantungku ini. tapi, aq terlalu yakin dan aq prcaya yg aq akn tetap setie dngan kaw walaupon kaw dh sakit kan aty aq. mse mula-2 kaw sakitkan aty aq, aq gram gak but dh lame pastu aq cube untuk bnci kaw tp aq xley sbb aq terlalu syg kan kaw . hanya kaw yg bole wat hidup aq ni ceria walaupon tanpa menegur , melayan , dan menghiburkanku. kerana sekali kaw memandang dan merenung wajahku tanpa mengeluarkan kate-2, aq teramat yakin yg hidup aq jadi bahagia. ntah, aq pon xtaw smpai ble lagi aq bolee btahan untuk tggu kaw . hanya tuhan saja yg tahu ap yang ku rasa saat ini. aq sanggup menepis sebuah cinta dr seseorang yang amat mndambakan cintaku kerana aq mahu kaw lihat betapa besarnya cinta aq trhadap kaw sehingga aq sanggup menolak cinta dari seseorang kerana kaw . aq sanggup menunggu kaw . namun aq xbrani mengatakan yang kaw mnjadi milikku . kerana jodoh di tangan tuhan . aq hanya berserah pada tuhan. jika kaw jodohku, aq akn terime mu dngan seadanya . jika tidak aq akan memohon kpade tuhan untk menjauhkan diri kaw dr hidupku supaya aq dpat meneruskan hidup tanpamu. tp aq mahu kaw tahu yg kaw adlah cinta pertamaku dan aq ingin kaw menjadi cinta terakhirku .
CREDIT TO: FZ

♥♥

there's only you in my heart.

sedihnye ble kaw pindaa. xtggu aq pon. aq bkannye taw kaw nk pindaa ari yg same aq ikot bpak aq g sepang. kenapa kaw xtggu aq. walaupun masing-2 xnk jmpe, at least kasi lahh aq peluang terakhir tgok muke kaw. dh lahh nk contact kaw ssah. pe-2 hal aq harap sangat yg kaw dtg-2 lahh jb kay . but , aq tkot nnt law kaw dtg jb kte xkan prnah trserempak. urmm . whatever.
n satu lagy pengakuan aq ialah aq mngaku yg aq mmng xley lupekan kaw lahh kawan sbb kaw je yg bolee wat aq hepy walaupon kaw sakitkan aty aq.

actually i just wanna say gudbyee to you and simply said is i lurve u and u are the only one in my heart . jage diri bek-2 kay .

to my friend yg dh lame xbrtegur ngan aq ats sbb-2 yg xmsok akal . hee ~

i gotta go my own way

i gotta says what in my mind
something about us 
doesn't seem right these days                                                                                                           
life keeps getting in the way 
whenever we try some how the plan 
is always rearranged 
it's so hard to say 
but i've gotta do what's best for me 
you'll be okay


i've got to move on and be who i am 
i just don't belong here 
i hope you understand 
we might find our place in this world some day 
but at least for now 
i gotta go my own way


don't wanna leave it all behind 
but i get my hopes up
and i watch them fall everytime 
another colour turns to grey 
and it's just too hard to watch it all 
slowly fade away 


i'm leaving today coz i've gotta do what's best for me 
you'll be okay


i've got to move on and be who i am 
i just don't belong here 
i hope you understand 
we might find our place in this world some day 
but at least for now
 i gotta go my own way


what about us? 
what about everything we've been through?


what about trust?


you know i never wanted to hurt you


and what about me?


what am i supposed to do?


i gotta leave but i'll miss you


i'll miss you


so i've got to move on and be who i am
what do you have to go?


i just don't belong here i hope you understand 
i'm trying to understand 
we might find our place in this world somedays 
but at least for now


i want you to stay i wanna go my own way 


i've got to move on and be who i am 
what about us? 


i just don't belong here i hope u you understand 
i'm trying to understand 


we might our place in this world somedays but at least for now 


i gotta go my own way
i gotta go my own way 
i gotta go my own way

Maafkan aku !!

dah lame gakk ann aq xupdate blog aq. rindu plak . sejak lupekan dy . mcam-2 dugaan dtg . org tuhh la ni lahh aiyshh . susahnye idop law cm ni . rase cm nk bunuh diri je .
n sejak dak laki ni igt blk kt aq . aq rse hepy sgt . but at the same time . aq rse brsalah ngan awek dy . coz aq xnk law ap-2 jd ngan hubungan dy owg nnt aq gak yg kene . mcam-2 alasan yg aq cube beri, tapi mcam xbrjaye je . dy mcam taw yg aq cube jauhkan diri dari dy . 5 tahun kott dy knal aq , msti lahh dy taw cmne prangai aq . i just wanna say to u that i hav tu take a distance on u for u n ur own life with her . i know tht we wanna be together but we can't coz i really don't want this happen to me . i just wanna see u happy . hope u understand what i mean n i'm really-2 sorry coz i can't be with u n be beside u when u need me . i have to. maybe . once ago , u said to me that u like me but at the same time i said no, we can't . coz he had been couple with my best friend . after he broke up with my friend , he keep looking n searching for me n he really-2 hope that i accept him in my life . but , i will say the same word which is 'no' . n i until he found a girl who can make his life more cheerful . but i know that his heart is with me , until today .
3/12- he texting with me . but i ask him a question about him, me n his girl . n he always said then he love me . n i just tell him the truth that i love him. but what about his girl ?
suddenly i've thought deeply that i will back away because i want to see you with her a happy life. i do not want to disturb you . until now i do not know how to say how close you because i am afraid you are disappointed with my decision . i clogged so badly . i hope if you read what i write is you can understand and if possible do not find me again . and one more thing , i want you to know that i love u . but i do not promise that my love to u is endures forever . i we are not meant together , i am pleased n i'll be looking for good people like you who are constantly concerned about me . thank u very much .